A Story About Self-Assessment

 

GIVE YOURSELF A HUG AND PAT YOURSELF ON THE BACK

It was 6:00p.m. already. I was on the road driving heading home from work. Usual traffic jam and it's only Wednesday. Red traffic light is on and it seemed forever. I wanted to go home early. A long day at work. Lots of meetings. Endless calls and appointment over the phone and in person. On the road, my mind is wandering with a lot of different things. I was thinking about my previous meeting. Strategizing for my next appointments for next week. Thinking about what better financial assistance options I would be able to offer to my clients. Wondering what I would be getting for dinner. Thinking about skipping my dinner, again. Thinking about my modules for my Financial Planning Courses. Recalling which page I was on the last time. Suddenly, I started to reminisce memories of life in Singapore. I wanted to take a day off at work but I would not. Thinking how difficult this pandemic has been for everyone. COVID-19 – was the worst season ever in the entire history perhaps. We're getting busier everyday. 

It's now close to 7:00pm and I'm still on the road. I considered about playing some music but I changed my mind. I need a complete silence. I need a moment to think. Or should I say relax? Music is relaxing though. Probably not, I was not in the mood. 

It's 7:14pm. Finally, I'm home. I went straight to the washroom to wash my hands. Then I went straight to my room. What now? I asked myself. I sat down on my chair for a bit. Switched on my laptop. It boots quickly. I didn't realized that I was moving my computer mouse device in a circular pattern. I slouched for sometime. Can't help to think about my next strategies to help clients. Options, options, options. Nah!, I exclaimed. I looked at the ceiling for awhile as if my flashmount ceiling light could do something. I just keep on staring the light. I kept on staring for few minutes. Bizarre feeling but I found it relaxing. Then my mind wanders again as if I was on the state of meditation. Memories were flashing back, good memories. 

My intuitions kicked in. My current state felt revitalizing which is very uncommon. At that point of time, my intuition is whispering something. I knew it, at last! I finally realized that was weary. 

I sat up straight and evaluated my current situation. Positive insights sets in. At long last, I started my self-assessment. 

On that same night, I was able to finally admit that my energy is completely depleted. I was completely denying that fact at first. As they say, the first step in solving a problem is recognizing that there is one. So I paused for a while. Took a deep breath. I get rid of any thoughts. Stayed sitting on my chair and just simply sat down for awhile. I encourage myself to absorb positive thoughts and re-evaluate my current emotions. 

I did what I need to do. I pampered myself with small pleasure to loosen up. I did relaxed for a while. Chill for a bit. Watched funny movie clips. Savour the moments. Grabbed some light foods for a dinner. I did took a walk outside. I look at the stars. Took a deep breath. These were not in a specific sequence. These were some of the collective memories I had back then.

Most of us were getting busier everyday with a lot different things. When we were pre-occupied, our subconscious generates multiple excuses blocking our ability to perceive positive images on our head. Oftentimes we fail to recognize that we were getting exhausted. Consumed with numerous stressful thoughts. 

Whilst taking care of others is a noble deed yet attending to our needs is equally essential and should not be taken for granted. A lot of times, we tend to over prioritized attending the needs of others apart from ours which is unhealthy. Though looking after others needs is righteous and we do those things unselfishly, eventually it could worn us out.

Every so often, we need to unclogged our thoughts from the present reality. Not run away. But just, let our mind glance towards the past and the future so we can see the big picture. Understanding the why's we are doing things everyday is important. 

It's easy to be destructed especially when we are worn out. Sometimes, when we fell fatigue, we tends to choose alone and felt lost. 

When we look at the deeper meaning to where God is leading us, that's when we would be able to grasp the essence of our present situation. That's when we ask God to cast away all the burdens from our heart. HE can help us loosen up the burden fully. Which, after all, you do not have to carry that burden alone. That way you could focus to the most important things in life. 

This reminds me of these powerful scripture from the Book of Matthew 11:28-29 and Mark 6:31. 

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. (Matthew 11:28-29 NIV). Then, because so many people were coming and going that they did not even have a chance to eat, he said to them, “Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest.” (Mark 6:31 NIV)

Hope this article brought you a positive perception in life as you move forward on your unique amazing journey. Give yourself a brake. That guy inside you needs a pat on the back once in a while. Have a chat with your inner you. Essentially, your other persona needs some company. 

OVER TO YOU..

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This is Romwar and this is my story..